After reading this, I must admit that we on the Community Team are concerned about you and have emailed you directly to offer some additional support, please do check your email.
As a pan-disability charity, it would be fair to say that our strengths in information and advice lie in the daily lives of disabled people. As a social model organisation, we don’t have the expertise or qualifications to give detailed advice on issues such as withdrawal and would strongly advise you speak to your GP or any health professionals involved with your care.
As said a few times in this thread, please give Samaritans a call on 116 123 and in the meantime, please carry on posting here, or feel free to email us directly at [email protected] where we will try to help. If of course you ever feel as if you are in immediate danger, please call 999 or visit your local hospital.